I,ve felt like giving up,since the murder of my little brother last year {R.I.P lee}ive got the court cases in april for it. and friends now dont come round cos in so many words they dont know what to say to me ,a catch 22, but the the thing that keeps me here is i stay fuck this im staying alive to get the mother fucker that killed my brother when he finished his fucking life sentence that he should get. ive put a couple of goals together like my driving lessons which i start wednesday and i pasted the theory the other week ive my brothers mini that was finished in his memory to drive to and im working again to keep me busy.thing is my brother wouldnt want me 2 give up and i no that, i invision what he would do if i died and he was sat here infront of this computer and he would say im gonna get that fucker for Billy im not gonna give up and let the guy win.plus the fact i couldnt do it and put that that on my Father it would be nothing but selfish to kill myself . sorry if 2 deep u asked lol