Good Morning Guys,
It's 8:53 am here in Chicago, IL and I was woke up with bad news. I've been staying at my gram's place as alot of you know, partially because I can't find a roommate, partially to spend more time with my Gram, she's currently suffering from Cancer and going through Chemo and I want to spend more time with her.
Anyway, she's been doing the Chemo for awhile with no problems at all. She actually only had four more sessions to go. Well, the doctor she goes to ran out of the liquid Chemo that goes through the blood stream and there was a shortage of the supply here in the States (kind of like what always happens with the Flu Shot) So they had been giving her Chemo pills instead.
She's been in alot of pain lately, and it hurts me soo much to see her like this. I mean, my Gram wasn't like the old lady who knits type. She was at the gym more than me working out, she played video games and basketball, she even used to challenge me and my little cousin to dance competitions. She was the healthiest person I know and so full of life.
So it sucks to see her like this now. And this morning, all of her hair came out. She had long hair, that I had just twisted for her last night, and all the twists were on her pillow this morning, her hair just came out from the root.
She's still upbeat and happy, but I can't deal with it. I can't stop crying, i've been crying all morning, and I don't want to cry in front of her. I'm always the strong one, who holds it together when things go wrong, but how can I be strong for her, when I can't be strong for myself?
It's 8:53 am here in Chicago, IL and I was woke up with bad news. I've been staying at my gram's place as alot of you know, partially because I can't find a roommate, partially to spend more time with my Gram, she's currently suffering from Cancer and going through Chemo and I want to spend more time with her.
Anyway, she's been doing the Chemo for awhile with no problems at all. She actually only had four more sessions to go. Well, the doctor she goes to ran out of the liquid Chemo that goes through the blood stream and there was a shortage of the supply here in the States (kind of like what always happens with the Flu Shot) So they had been giving her Chemo pills instead.
She's been in alot of pain lately, and it hurts me soo much to see her like this. I mean, my Gram wasn't like the old lady who knits type. She was at the gym more than me working out, she played video games and basketball, she even used to challenge me and my little cousin to dance competitions. She was the healthiest person I know and so full of life.
So it sucks to see her like this now. And this morning, all of her hair came out. She had long hair, that I had just twisted for her last night, and all the twists were on her pillow this morning, her hair just came out from the root.
She's still upbeat and happy, but I can't deal with it. I can't stop crying, i've been crying all morning, and I don't want to cry in front of her. I'm always the strong one, who holds it together when things go wrong, but how can I be strong for her, when I can't be strong for myself?
